Hard to believe that a young man like me could have the guts to be spontaneous, determined and surprisingly strong enough to take on such a challenge that has had me all tangled up over the last 8 months.And last weekend, on
May 30th 2015, I not only proved myself wrong when doubting myself but also helped myself realise my true inner potential. This was the 2nd most incredible, life changing accomplishment of my life and this May, the first... well *wink*.
Anyway, read here as I go on and on about how me and the team conquered
The Tough Mudder, Midlands 2015.
As you all know that since October last year, under impulse I decided to participate with my band of bros to join them on their 2nd Tough Mudder Challenge (it was mine, Richard and Jack's first time).
Over this long period of time, I've been filled with a swirling pool of emotions and I've been through a lot. The whole training and strict routine as well as improvement has been hard on me but all for the better. I've been excited, scared, doubtful, determined and slightly courageous all this time and on that day, I was filled with determination, strength and enthusiasm/ teamwork spirit because all my hard training had really paid off and helped me keep pace with the others. I was most worried all this time about falling behind from the others and a couple obstacles as well as my Crohns, but I conquered them all (except a couple obstacles, of course).
Anyway, on Friday 29th May, the day started off with Thunder and a heavy rainfall before I joined Richard, Bradley and Ryan in Richard's car all the way up north to
Burton (near
Derby where
Download Festival is) at around 1 in the afternoon.
Our long roadtrip was full of blazing speeds (thanks Richard, I say sarcastically) and we made a stop at
Cobham for food at this big service area which was almost like an Airport Mall and got some food at Starbucks.
We were heading to
Burton because we were all staying at Oli's Dads house which was amazing with 3 floors, a conservatory and generous hospitality from Tim and Julie.
They both emitted strong enthusiasm and belief in us all, both having served/ still serving the British Armed Forces and just giving me some tips and reminding us all to have fun, which we did.
That lovely evening (once Cathy and Lewis arrived a little later and we met Jack first time at the house), we all did the right thing and ordered Dominoes, snacks from Sainsbury's and watched the interesting Action, Sci-Fi film,
CHAPPiE which I actually enjoyed (like the rest of Neil Blomkamp's films) despite the mixed reviews everyone's been giving it.
So instead of staying up till stupid o'clock, we all fell asleep near 10.30 and set alarms for 8.00 tomorrow morning and prepare ourselves for an eventful day tomorrow...
Waking up to a glorious sunrise with a small raincloud over the house was an interesting way to wake up, shame it was 5 in the morning and in the conservatory, no matter, I fell asleep again before a few of us got up at 7.30. We had an excellent breakfast of Pasta with Cheese (best recommended) and soon we all had our gear on, tickets, IDs, waivers and spare clothing before heading off at 8 for a 1.5hour jouney to Northamptonshire on a good sunny/ cloudy day.
I was sweating and scared a little in the back of my head but nothing that Lewis and Cathy couldn't help and I too began to feel the excitement take over and I believed that today was going to be an incredible day. We did have a small problem with discovering that the postcode we were using was different to the carpark area which was no problem and we notified the others in their cars.
After parking in a huge field, most of us made our way to the area to sign in whilst waiting for Ryan, Richard, Jack and Bradley.
After entering and handing over our tickets and waivers, we each got our Paper Number and wrote our numbers on our arms (like we were going into Prison, sorry that a dark joke!) Once we were all present and stretched, we headed to the Starting Line area and got hyped and pumped up thanks to our 2 hype men and the 2 fitness instructors.
We all shared a deep roaring session to get the spirit rising as well as bowing down to older Mudder Legionnaires (people who have been before and with different coloured headbands) and we all chanted the Tough Mudder speech and then it was time to begin!
On here, I decided to use a lot of picture examples from
The Tough Mudder Midlands Facebook Page seeing as the pictures from my friend's cameras are either not coming through or only they couldn't make it to every obstacle/ moment.
The one's with The Tough Mudder Watermark are basically the event pictures and not mine.
The whole experience was absolutely incredible especially the
Camaraderie (
mutual trust and friendship among people who spend a lot of time together), it really pushed me to my limit as well as help me get grubby and not feel to bothered because I was too focused and having fun with the guys. Each
obstacle was intimidating at first glance whilst jogging to it in the distance, but once there and seeing everyone else climb, bide their time, swim, jump, crawl and take a deep breath really helped make me aware that everyone is maybe feeling the same way as me - scared but also excited. I still can't believe that I did 22 out of the 24 obstacles on that 11Mile Course!
After all gathering after our Hype moment, we climbed over a (roughly) 6ft wall which was no problem and then we all bowed down and took one knee down in respect to past Tough Mudder Legionnaires and all chanted
The Tough Mudder Pledge, we were finally off.
The first few were pretty simple such as climbing over walls and haystacks
1. Bale Bonds and the crooked tall wall
2. Skid Marked which was a good start in my view compared to what the others said last years was like where within either the 2nd obstacle or 1st Mile they had to do the
Arctic Enema (Ice Bath) luckily this time, it was around halfway through the course. Soon the icy chills began to overtake as water obstacles started to follow through including wallowing through a stream,
plus we climbed through a tube and fell into a pool of more muddy water
3. Mystery Obstacle and also we crawling through mud under a huge bag of water
4. Birth Canal.
5. Creek Crusade #1 and
6. Creek Crusade #2 were the same as wallowing through a cold stream in the forest and using rope to drag ourselves out whilst trying not to slip over in the mud (luckily we didn't but the same can't be said for others that day) haha.
After making it out the Forest and back into the daylight (whilst we were still freezing after being in water 3 times already) we made it back onto the open trail and saw the spectators again and our friends/ family.
7. Island Hopping was funny to attempt as we all tried and failed and landed into water, again haha.Oh well, least we tried and we either rushed through it or got close before slipping off the blocks which were rocking about in the water (even
Tim's advice was smart but too much for us to follow through with.
After that we came to a net which we had to crawl under which was
8. Devil's Beard (interesting title) which had a haybale in the middle for us to climb over (we looked like animals that had been caught in a net) but thanks to the spirit of
Camaraderie and I like being a good sport, I lifted the net up to help my team mates and others as well as helping people throughout the day including climbing up walls, I was worried for a second that they would be too much for me and pull me back over to do the obstacle again, luckily I held on tight and helped out perfectly for my mates and other people whilst encouraging people like a good lad.
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Picture from Tough Mudder Website
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Picture from Tough Mudder Website
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We soon saw a big wall on top of a hill which by the time we got to it was actually nearly 12-foot (so much more dificult than your average school gym class rope), it was
9. Balls To The Wall.
Lewis told me that last year the obstacle was closed during the day as someone had falled down and injured themselves... Thanks Lewis haha. It wasn't that hard seeing as I have had a lot of core and muscle workout at the gym and have done a
Muscle Up sometimes so lifting myself off the ground isn't tough but holding onto a muddy rope was a little heartpounding. But once I got to the top, it was just lift yourself slowly over to the other side and slowly climb back down and done.
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| Well Done, Richard! |
10. Arctic Enema (The Ice Bath), OH MY GOD! I have never been so cold in my life! This was my fear for the day as people told me about
just doing it as fast as possible because most times people freeze up
as soon as the impact hits them and if they don't hurry through and have
to be pulled out by the staff. We climbed up a scafholding and slid
down into a skip full of water and was constantly being refilled with
Ice from a Truck with Generator. I can't believe that I did it (sorry no
picture to prove but I DID DO IT).
Bradley and
Richard and me did it 3 at once (
Lewis had to miss out due to his contact lenses) but the second we landed in the water, we rushed under the tyre and tried climbing out the skip and jumping out. We were then running around like headless chickens and I was like
Happy Gilmore, I was swearing like mad (sorry) and we all felt like collapsing like our muscles were locking up and we kept jogging on the spot whilst waiting for
Jack and
Oliver and all carried on after talking to our friends quickly whilst suffering haha.
The next one was where I cut myself sadly thanks to the Muddy hills which were actually rock coated in Mustard coloured Mud and looked like a Mountain/ Motorcross Bike Hills, this was
11. Mud Mile #1. I tried staying with the guys but I hurried through and as I slid down the rock, I felt a painful prick in my right hand as I landed in water and coated my shoes, legs and shorts.
I looked at my right hand and saw blood all over so I hurried through and got some water mud in my face, lovely and made my way to the Medic next to
Julie and
Tim.
He sorted me out with some clean water on the wound and checked to make sure nothing had got inside the cut.
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See how rough and sharp
the rock were
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The guys were marking each other
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It was a deep cut in the bottom left of my right palm (about the size of a 5p coin roughly so nothing serious) and it sorta didn't stop me or affect my progression onwards.
I got plastered and wrapped up in clean foil and recorded my details for safety reasons and we all quickly shared a group picture before continuing, I'm glad
Julie having been a Medic in the British Army reassured me and kept checking on the day and afterwards since it was like a Motherly/ Caring feeling).
We began warming up a little as we carried on and after passing the 6Miles marking, we came to
12. Hero Carry. How I managed to carry
Richard was a real shocker and confidence booster at the same time because it showed how really strong I have become. Firstly half way through the obstacle, he carried me and I had some fun by quoting
Yoda "
Do. Or do not. There is no try." and "
Fear is the path to the dark side…fear leads to anger…anger leads to hate…hate leads to suffering." which made Richard laugh a little but when it got to the half way point (think it was 50 meters) it was my turn. I walked slowly whilst carrying him piggy back and slowly but surely I made it without stopping or falling over in the slippery mud, how?!
Can't really remember or understand
13. Killa Gorilla because it was basically a trail in the Forest with rubbish, tree branches and rocks in the mud for us to avoid and some deep ditches for us to jump over. Nothing really special or tough, it was just jogging in the woods.
After jogging up a steep hill shortly out of the Forest and back to a wide open hill, we saw another huge wall which everyone needed some help/ support with, it was
14. Hero Walls.
These 10-foot original walls I'm guessing thanks to the printed on
Help For Heroes logo on these walls was like the other walls for me, I just needed a little boost to help this Hobbit up and over and then I stayed on the other side to help some others up and over, it felt really amazing and rewarding to help others and stick around for teamwork seeing as we're all in this together instead of it being a race for glory. I did go to the Medic Area to get my bandaged up hand sorted again as the clean foil had come off so they put a new one on and this time Sellotaped it up.
The clouds began to cover up the sun for good as we came to
15. The Liberator which was a suprisingly easy one for me (I sound so cocky), it was a 10-foot A-wall with slots in for you to use small pegs to slot in and climb up as if you were hiking up a
mountain with a pickaxe mattock (obviously not). Even the guys were surprised as to how fast I did it (guess I really amy strong after all) and at the top, I dropped back down the pegs for others to use. People saw ways around it by ascending faster by ignoring a couple slots (may seem like cheating) but it's what everyone else was doing instead of slotting both in-line and climbing up and then trying to continue the pattern quickly.
Annoyingly, we saw that round the corner from the edge of the Forest for good, we had a quick drink of
Volvic water and a piece of a
Carrot 9Bar (they were delicious) and saw that along the road that we were coming back to
16. Mud Mile #2, sigh. I don't mean to sound like a wimp but due to my right hand, I figured it was best to skip it as I didn't want to maybe get another cut anywhere else and jeoporadise my chances of finishing, so I jogged along it but stayed to cheer my friends on and watch them get dirty again in the filthy mud haha.
Number
17. Tyre Carry was a surprise and uncomfortable challenge since the slippery and dirty tyres all ranged from many sizes (felt like mine was for a small Tractor or something because it was short and wide plus heavy). But we only carried it for a short walk almost as long as Hero Carry I think.
This next one helped us all get clean and cold again as it looked like an epic send off (like something from
Total Wipeout or
Tarzan) as well had to swing from a ledge using a handle pole into a huge pool of water in
18. King Of The Swingers. I enjoyed that one and wish I had: a) been able to do a flip or something after letting go and b) had a good shot of me doing it, Oh Well you can't get em all.
So now that we were all feeling cold and wet again and doing our best to cope with the wind blowing at us harshly, we entered back to the wide open hills and could hear the speakers blazing for the announcer on the microphone meaning we weren't far from finishing but next up was
19. Kiss Of Mud 2.0 (guess what this one involved haha). This time I had to get up close and personal with the sloppy, thick mud (I'm so relieved that I didn't get any in my mouth or eyes), we all had to crawl under barbed wire and gently and slowly climb over a hay bale whilst avoiding the sharp wire overhead.
Up next was an impossible one for us seeing as our knees were aching and bodies shivering that we had no chance of completing it, it was
20. Funky Monkey 2.0. I've never been a fan of the monkey bars at playgrounds so seeing as this one was slippery and there was water below us, it was inevitable so we all did the same and just jumped in and swam to the other side (it's way better to see for real that this obstacle/ this time that the bars weren't rotating, that's just too much and makes me wanna yell out "
Oh Come On!" or "
You gotta be kidding me"! I mean we would have had to climb up using the ladder grips and then quickly grab onto a pole and continue, uh no thank you.
Now being even colder than before and soaking wet, we did a quick lap round the field and came to a strong eye watering area filled with gas and a long queue, it was now time for the painful
21. Cry Baby.
Because my bandage had become wet twice, it was loose again and became exposed to the deadly tear gas and sting like f**k so I though it would be best to skip this one out too instead of crawling blind through that long box. So I got myself sorted AGAIN with a plaster, clean foil and sellotape (these sound like materials for kidnapping haha) whilst the others crawled like mad through that painful gas (and it wasn't even one of my farts hahaha).
The last 2 were challenging and scary but we persevered through. After a while jogging all the way back to the back of the main area and passing by the car park fields, we noticed we were on the route where we saw people passing by as we arrived that morning. Our
23. Everest 2.0 was a tough one because it was a huge (I think it said somewhere it was 20% bigger than last time) skaterboard quaterpipe which was also slippery and steeper than last year according to the guys. Good on my friends for getting it on their first try despite our aching knees and cold bodies, but it took me 2 attempts ( didn't run fast enough on 1st try and slid back down laughing) before ascending my way up there to glory. It wasn't all bad since there was a spokesperson to keep people hyped and entertained (he wasn't rude or antagonising luckily) were staff and other mudders there at the top, leaning over with hands ready to grab fellow mudders and help pull them up because the quaterpipe was curved near the top instead of having a ledge to try and grab hold of. Everyone was holding there hands up as they came near the top and hoping for people to grab them, I was so tempted to do a loud charge roar/ battle cry but then I would make a scene even if it would have felt epic haha.
So our last and final obstacle for this intense challenge was a choice between two which were
23. Dead Ringer or
24. Electroshock Therapy!Dead Ringer was basically like the obstacle in
Ninja Warrior on
Sky1 which has always looked jaw dropping and difficult to even think about somehow accomplishing because one false move and you slip off plus you have to hang for a while whilst trying to slot the hoops over the pegs to stay up high (like an intense version of
Assassin's Creed or
Uncharted climbing and shifting across a ledge).
Lewis went for that one and did his best but it wasn't enough as we were all so exhausted.
The rest of us took on Electroshock Therapy. This one along with Arctic Enema and Everest were all the scariest things to not look forward to because they looked painfully impossible to me. But after a quick deep breath and shouting in my head "You Can Do This!" repeatedly, I charged through the orange cables full of supposedly hundreds/ thousands of electrical volts and got hit I think 4-6 times.
To make it even more painfully challenging, we had to run through thick mud and also jump over a hay bale which would mean jumping up into the cables and getting stung even more (F***s sake haha).
As
Paul Finch said in
American Pie: The Reunion "
It hurt like a b**ch" and it did, lots of people all had ideas of what it feels like,
Ed from work said "
It's like getting punched where your stung", others said "
It's like getting jabbed by needles" and I thought it would be devastating like getting stuck in the mud and being electrocuted like a cartoon character. That's quite over exaggerated right since no one wants anyone to die on this event and I always thought and still tell people for fun what it was like running through whilst yelling
Ow in pain like I was a cartoon like
Tom Cat from
Tom & Jerry or something. I find it hard to descibe myself since I ran through it as quickly as I could, I think it felt like both descriptions but not as painful as you'd think (I don't know if it's the adrenaline that fired me up) but
I think it all matters on how strong you are against electric shocks which must be 5 or possibly 10x worse than normal.
But if I can do it, then surely it'll motivate you into believing in yourself too, right?!
So our victory had us greeted by staff at the Finish Line with Orange
Tough Mudder 2015 Headbands and a bag with 2
9Bars and a bottle of
Volvic water plus we had to go to the stall near the side to pick up a
Kinstone Press Cider and pick out our size T-shirt saying
Tough Mudder Midlands 2015 FINISHER!
That proud moment where we all had our group photo taken (picture at the very top) was the split-second moment where I realised I had done it. I had done the most challenging task of my life and I conquered some fears and barriers and even got dirty with mud and was slightly okay with it all.
So after reuniting ourselves and getting congratulated by
Julie,
Tim,
Ryan and
Cathy, I popped over to the Medic Area like I had been told to by the Medic back at Mud Mile to confirm some details. First time I went there,
Julie and
Tim recommended grabbing a
Space Blanket which I got turned down for since they said the Medics said I looked fine anyway and the second time I popped there after sharing the group picture, turns out that it wasn't necessary as I explained it all quickly to some old lady who responded with "Go have a shower, put on new clothes and then come over to look at the details"she had a clear as daylight unsure expression on her face.
I had to say "Thank you anyway" and just thought F**k this since that Medic back then had my details anyway and it wasn't anything serious or life-changing and these people were pretty useless so there was no point digging any deeper into it. Best option was for us all to head back home already!
Before leaving, I decided to strip off my soggy muddy gear and wrap myself in my towel and just sit in that. Our 2 hour long return journey felt longer thanks to the slow movement getting out of the Field and getting back on the main roads to the motorway to go back to Olivers. Glad I had
Cathy (
Lewis was fast asleep) driving us back safely.Soon as we got in, turns out that
Richard had left already with
Brad and
Ryan to go back home, we'll celebrate with them in June. Before having a well deserved Shower, I turned on my phone and saw 10 Missed Calls from
Mum and
Dad who were in
Corfu on this day till my birthday and 4 Text Messages from them and 3 Missed Calls from
Rebecca, woops. So I made some amazing phone calls full of proud enthusiasm and a reassuring story of my cut and the day in general.
Lewis and I bought another
Dominoes Pizza and soon we all found ourselves going to sleep near 10.30pm, I always imagined everyone would party like I said before like it's a huge celebration or like it's
1999, guess there will be future partying to do!
The following day, we all woke up and had some fun including playing
Splatoon on the
Nintendo Wii U which was really fun and started to encourage me to purchase one someday (though that depends on what
Nintendo have to offer at
E3 and what new games espeically the next
Legend Of Zelda will be featured
on.
Plus on the way home in the car,
Cathy introduced me to a great American hard rock band called
Halestorm and after hearing the song
The Misery, I'm now hooked on this band.
And she also showed me this Awesome POP boy band called I FIGHT DRAGONS who play 8-bit/ Gameboy Music in the songs. I've been hooked on them to this day and think they are one of the best bands to have ever been introduced to thanks to their outstanding and nostalgic style like listening to a Punk/ Rock Band with a Gameboy playing in the system.
We all headed with
Cathy for home at 2.30pm and thanked
Oli and
Julie for having us and I thanked them for believing in me (
Tim had gone to work in the morning), I look forward to seeing them again sometime.
We had a long 4 hour journey home whilst dropping
Jack off home in
Reading. We ever popped over again to the
Cobham Food Court that me and the guys went to on our journey up to
Oli's.
I got in for 6.30pm and thanked
Cathy and gave her £20 as a thank you for everything and said I'd see em both again soon and that this was an honour.
Funny enough, I popped home for a short while because on the way home,
Amy had contacted me on the journey home and asked to go and see
Man Up (the new
Simon Pegg film) with her, which I did.
I really enjoyed it and it was quite funny and had a lot of cringe moments full of embarassment but a heart-warming ending that even got me and
Amy in tears.
After driving her back home, we even shared a long hour chat in the car outside her place just talking which I rather enjoy doing with the right people. I'll be seeing her in June again either with the others for my late 22nd Go-Karting Party or at
Amy's house with different people to celebrater her finishing University, this is gonna be good!
The reason this has taken so long to write up is that I've been waiting for the pictures from my friend's cameras as well as naming them appropriately plus I've been quite distracted since the event and it's been bothering me on not getting this done the day after I had it all planned out but at least it's finally up now for you all to read and to put my mind at ease.
As for the first week in June, well since the day of the Mudder,
Mum and
Dad went to
Corfu again and are coming back on my birthday (6th June). So that week,
Becca
and I have been very responsible (no that wasn't in sarcasm haha). We
spent the whole day on Monday doing washing and using the tumble dryer
(it was my first time in a long time) as I have such a good mum.
It's a bad, embarrassing and awkward thing to admit but at least I'm
honest enough to also admit with pride that I was independant and along
with the instructions from them and Becca that we kept it up all day
till 10pm late evening. I was annoyed however in the back of my mind
that I didn't use my day off on Monday whilst recuperating to write down
this story sooner on
AsperJosh but at least I did the right thing instead.
Haven't
been able to cook this week as I have been getting up at 6.15am to feed
the cats and then get ready for work and then call them in near 8pm and
feed them at 10.30pm.
I did on a nostalgic note back on the 3rd May,
Mum and I cooked
Stuffed Peppers one weekend, I was motivated by my joyful day out shopping with
Mum
that I wanted to have a dinner that I really enjoy and I was determined
to make it with her, which I did. It was delicious, healthy and not bad
for my first try. I am definitely going to begin learning more over the
Summer since I'm not far now from becoming a woman/ wife's dream (I can
clean, dust, hoover, mow the garden, drive, wash up, listen to her and
now I just need to continue to slowly learn to cook and soon start
learning how to dance *preferrably The Waltz* then I am complete/ perfection ha).
But just before my birthday,
Kurt
had his 20th on Wednesday (his birthday is the day before mine, this
mean's we can never forget eachothers) and he invited me and
Tommy,
Sam,
Ewan and Kurt's brother
Lewis to go
Go-Karting at
TeamSport Indoor Go-Karting in
Gatwick. It was a blast and super awesome. I was a real competitive
Fast And Furious speed freak. I was also drifting perfectly which was a
surprise even for me as I was blazing around and have an incredible,
adrenaline pumping time. It even influenced me to choose this as my
birthday special but a couple days later since it's cheaper on
Wednesdays. And on Monday this week, we exchanged birthday presents, I bought him 3 MARVElous FUNKO POPS of
Vision -
Avengers: Age Of Ultron,
Yondu -
Guardians Of The Galaxy and
Lady Sif -
Thor. And he bought me 3 Comicbooks from
Reedcomics.com,
Deadpool #1 and
Superior Spider-Man #11-16 #22-26, love you bro!
As for my birthday, well I was spoiled with the company of
Rebecca and her friends
Emily and her bf
Ryan for the week as they slept over and treated me out on the 5th for a meal at
Sussex Barn. So on the 6th, I opened up all my cards and got some very nice presents from
Rebecca (love her!) and some Heroes from my neighbours who are like grandparents. So we all went to town for a drink at
Pret a Mangr and then popped into
GAME where
Em helped me get a good discount on some
3DS games. I had so much fun and a warm-hearted feeling responding to all 120+ Facebook Birthday Posts from the best people that I am honoured to be friends/ family with (I even said Hello to some people I hadn't heard from in a year or few).
I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off me, like I have been set free from a 8 month log stressful period of doubt and strict routines as well as getting so wound up over not jogging due to life and it's surprises. Don't get me wrong, I really am chuffed that I completed this mental challenge, the way I see it is it's like I finished the end of year exams, you know where you were worried in your head and took a deep breath before stepping forward and when you come back out, you feel like a whole new person and your at peace with many things.
Plus I've come a long way from 3Miles in October to now 8.5Miles by mid May and now I've done 11Miles.
I think the best thing about it now all being over is besides now knowing that
I CAN do challenges like this and I am now even motivated and encouraged to par-take in future challenges even if they are lower or maybe even longer than this.
But also I feel like a
changed man, like this whole experience was another mile stone in my life and has now allowed me to begin new activities and follow through crucial life plans now that this major event has been accomplished. Now I can get back into saving my money for a
MacBook Pro and talk with my Mac tech friends about Apps and Software to look into and most of all begin re-learning the fun of IT and start moving towards my future career which seems to be in the Designing area such as
Website Design hopefully someday.
Plus I can FINALLY begin all the main series that everyone's up-to-date with like
Game Of Thrones,
The Walking Dead,
The 100,
Arrow,
Gotham,
Breaking Bad,
The Flash,
Daredevil etc, to be honest, I already know briefly the main events in GOT thanks to the people from work but it doesn't mean I won't give up on watching these incredible series just because I'm behind or know spoilers already. If anything, I want to be able to talk to all my friends as well as not feel restricted. I hope to not become a "Cough Potato" but more of an up-to-date person on series, I wonder which ones
Mum will join me on seeing as we are up-to-date already on
Marvel's Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D,
Downton Abbey and
The Tomorrow People (though that one got cancelled sadly).
Also I can now focus my time on signing up to an
Online Dating Website so that I can get out there more and meet people in a better way and get to know them first before the first encounter because to me, chatting to people and seeing our mutual interests actually helps me break the first "barrier" and will be much easier to feel comfortable around, this will be interesting and someday I'll know the unbelievable joy of having and loving someone special in my life as well as the mind numbing pleasure of a kiss (I mean as in a girlfriend kiss not the kiss like last time).
Plus I can continue the rest of the year with no worries, sure I'll still jog here and then but not so strict on twice a week as it was tough to juggle between Gym and Jogging in the week alone these past 8 months, I quite enjoy the moment when it's happening just not the awkward judgement if I can do it on this day with the way things are going, I'll probably Jog once a week or two as I can still keep fit and maintain stamina slightly whilst doing Gym normally in the week.
So, what a post/ story, right?! I hope this has maybe even motivated people like me to look at themselves and believe that we can be so much more, we just need to find our inner potential whether it's for an intense activity or something else which requires courage and strength.
How many times can I go on about my little mates who have helped bring joy to my heart everyday over the last year? I don't know and I don't care, I love them too much.
Every morning, evening and anytime of day, Dash and Stache are sleeping about all curled up in the most awkward of places and sometimes join me or Rebecca in bed. I must have taken over 200+ pictures on my Iphone 5 of these two like their models because I can't help but aww at how adorable/ cute they always are.
It was only back in February when they were old enough to go outside for the first time and they took a brave step and went through the Catflap (after frequent weekends of patience and encouragment later). Now they can't get enough of going outside every day from when Dad let's them out at dawn and when it's time for them to come in when the sun goes down.
Sometimes it takes ages for them to come in, no matter how long we call "Dash", "Stache", "What's This?", "Din-Din", "Buddy" (yeah we talk to them a lot, were that crazy especially me) haha.
I feel so connected and trusted that the boys feel so comfortable around us and me that they love and expect a good and gentle tummy rub which makes them wiggle about on their back and purr like car engines in contentment. I feel like their friend rather than a Master to them. I feel like a bond has been made through trust and love and it feels wonderful.
