Technical Issue!

AsperJosh has suffered a heavy impact. Every picture on every post before the Africa one has been lost due to an album online becoming corrupted.
I have almost every picture stored across 2 laptops and will slowly begin to re-upload them to my posts over a long period of time!
I will be starting from latest posts and work backwards to re-upload the pictures.
Thank you for understanding!
Joshua :'(

UPDATE - Fixed Posts

2015 posts fixed so far:
- Tough Mudder 2015 - MCM Expo 2012 + Past Experiences - Telling People, I Have Aspergers - 5CPS - Marvel Phase Three - Attack On Titan - MCM Oct 2015 - Interstellar - Star Wars VII - Star Wars Original Trilogy - Star Wars Prequel Trilogy - Star Wars Battlefront - The Fault In Our Stars - Chronicle - Evans Night Out + Winter Wonderland 2015 -

2014 posts fixed so far:
- A Year's Progression At The Gym - 5CPS - The Land Before Time - X-Men Premier - X-Men DOFP - Halloween 2015 - Online Dating - Macbook Pro -

House MD, 3 Years Driving currently in progress.
More to be mended

Wednesday, 16 April 2014

Why I Go To The Gym

It's been a while since I had a huge talk about my inner feelings and thoughts. The "Pub and Club" turned out to be a big success. Recently I've been talking about some reviews and interests and I am now resting from a really bad flu and a slight shoulder muscle pain, speaking of which is my next topic to talk about!
Here I express my big thoughts and tell you how working out at the gym has changed my ways and beginning to make my appearance and confidence better!
Here's a serious topic to talk about! Why do I go to the gym while I suffer Crohn's Disease and slight Aspergers Syndrome? The answers are simple, I wish to be recognised more, feel better about my body and feel good about myself despite the things I have to live with.
I've been thinking about this post for a while now, I'm explaining how I enjoy but also sometimes have my doubts about going to the gym due to socialism, trying to fight against my own body or seeing the progression in myself. Last week I had a fun Thursday evening after work catching up with my good friend, Lewis (Creator of Alt:Mag) and we went to see the new film "Divergent" which was pretty darn good! And are both writing up reviews pretty soon! Well he's already posted his up, as for me? I don't know when I will or if I will?!

Now let me start from the beginning. I actually began using the gym back in my College days where 2 very good friends Dan (an instructor and model) and David (another Aspergers mate and now instructor) helped teach me everything about working out during my time at Collyers and Rob was the man in charge of the gym and always there to look out for me. I enjoyed learning from them all and their company as they were always helpful and still are. They always reassured me and are good men to chat to as well.
After Collyers, I didn't get the chance to workout anymore because I started working everyday and lost track of getting a gym membership. Now I have been going to the gym in my town and ever since I think it was September 2013, I have not only made new friends and made progression with my body but I have also seen it for myself.

(There's not many Gym pictures on Google Images!)
I have been going to the Pavilions DC Leisure Centre in the park religiously (if I can make it on my specific days) and I have never felt such an atmosphere that's friendly and peaceful and not to mention packed to workout in. It's thanks to the staff there "Mark, Thomas, Richard, Jordan, Christian and everyone else" who have always reassured me when I follow their teachings correctly and they see me making progression (even when I have my doubts!) They are good men to chat to socially too and they know their stuff (well they are qualified instructors!) It's thanks to them that I have gotten where I am today!

I have also made many friends since I began and they are all nice guys who just come here to workout too. I feel so confident and calm when I am there thanks to how everyone there is nice, funny, chatty and we are all working towards a goal. I've even made new friends who are at Collyers now "Sam, Tom and Mark" and met friends from my college days here again "Jonathon and Martin (sometimes David too)" and even some new faces "Arran, Emmanuel and Innocent". We all have fun chatting about anything as well as banter during our sessions or in the Health Suite and it's nice to socialise with new people who like me for me.

I like going to the Pavilions DC Leisure Centre because it offers many services like a Cafe, Personal Training etc. I used to go swimming a lot when I was around 12-15. I love going in the summer because they get the "Inflatable Course" out, I don't care how old I am, out of the way kids!

But I will admit that deep down I do have some doubts, sometimes I have a tough time there due to thinking how tough it really is for me to make new friends at social places (I feel better when I'm introduced by a friend to someone else normally) sometimes I can make the first move but it varies on how I am feeling right then, but with some people there that I wish to talk to like Girls and maybe even become friends with, it's unbelievably hard to pluck up the courage and say "Hello, I'm Josh" without blushing and worrying that I don't look my age and most of all feel unworthy. But my new friends and even Mark the Instructor have shown me it's not impossible and all it takes is that calm "Hello". I need to try this more and outside of the gym too!
Another troublesome fact that I can't get over is that because of my Crohns Disease, no matter what I eat especially Protein I end up losing within the day. So inevitably all the good stuff I need will undoubtably be lost (when I used to take Protein Shakes at Collyers, even those didn't help!)
Another thing that grinds my gears is the whole planning ahead routine I have to worry over before heading to the gym at all, like will I eat dinner quick enough and give myself 20-30 mins before heading there? Sometimes I eat late and by the time I get there in the end I only workout as much as possible (sometimes not my whole schedule), you have no idea how frustrating it is to not complete my whole workout before the gym closes. I also will admit that I don't know if it's from work or at the gym that I have gained the "Common Cold" and "Cough" many times, maybe it's from all the friendly handshakes and the fact people go to work/ workout no matter what! Oh well it can't be helped it might be one place or the other, I dunno!
I worry sometimes if this is all a lost cause or am I chasing a dream that's out of my reach due to all these limitations holding me down? And if I'll ever reach my goal/ status? But then I think back to the days when I first picked up a Dumbell and remember how much I have changed and how much weight I added to the machines and see how much I can lift up now! (It's quite a lot, really!)
But I do know someone who actually had Crohns Disease a couple years ago I think and he knows Martial Arts and looks pretty strong and confident! Now if he can withstand Crohns and workout without a problem (besides coping with it) then surely I can too!!! And someday I'll end up with a body that I am proud of!

Being me isn't easy, I lack the patience and confidence to see that I am actually making progress (mentally and physically), it may not be rapid since I lose my Protein and the other categories of diet due to Crohns.
But I am proud of myself for sticking to it and I still believe that someday I will achieve my goal and feel good about everything. I even feel that way most of the time now especially when I pose in the mirror and see myself and all the detail and bulk I have developed so far. I wonder if I'm developing a vain ego? ha ha

So ever since January 2014, I have started thinking more positively and remind myself that I am making progression, making friends and I am getting stronger. It may take longer and I may not look as strong physically but that doesn't mean I'm not but I can surprise people!

"Skin The Cat" (weird name, right?)

I've even achieved performing 2 hard exercises that involve stretching and using my own weight to perform it flawlessly. I was so chuffed when I performed "Skin The Cat" on 28th January and a "Muscle Up" on 9th April. I guess it's thanks to the inspiration and cheer I recieved from my friends and instructors. So if I can perform these 2 exercises, then who knows what else I can do with my body when I set my mind to it.
(By the way, this is me! Hello!!! I was going to upload pictures but thought best not to. Don't I look good? ha ha)

"Muscle Up"

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