Technical Issue!

AsperJosh has suffered a heavy impact. Every picture on every post before the Africa one has been lost due to an album online becoming corrupted.
I have almost every picture stored across 2 laptops and will slowly begin to re-upload them to my posts over a long period of time!
I will be starting from latest posts and work backwards to re-upload the pictures.
Thank you for understanding!
Joshua :'(

UPDATE - Fixed Posts
I HAVE FIXED ALL 2016 POSTS SO FAR!!!

2015 posts fixed so far:
- Tough Mudder 2015 - MCM Expo 2012 + Past Experiences - Telling People, I Have Aspergers - 5CPS - Marvel Phase Three - Attack On Titan - MCM Oct 2015 - Interstellar - Star Wars VII - Star Wars Original Trilogy - Star Wars Prequel Trilogy - Star Wars Battlefront - The Fault In Our Stars - Chronicle - Evans Night Out + Winter Wonderland 2015 -

2014 posts fixed so far:
- A Year's Progression At The Gym - 5CPS - The Land Before Time - X-Men Premier - X-Men DOFP - Halloween 2015 - Online Dating - Macbook Pro -

House MD, 3 Years Driving currently in progress.
More to be mended

Friday 9 October 2015

The Fault In Our Stars (Film Review)

Cancer affects everyone in tragic ways, it intrudes people's lives and crushes their hope. But for Hazel Grace Lancaster (Shailene Woodley), she has already accepted the fact that she will die someday and hasn't bothered with friends or socialising. But after meeting Augustus Waters (Ansel Elgort) at a Cancer Support Group does she begin to smile, enjoy herself and most importantly fall in Love before the end of the line.
See here why The Fault In Our Stars is a beautiful drama love story that will touch your heart.

The story is narrated by Hazel here and there and explains her painful history/ memory of her life and struggling to live. For her to give into her parent's encouragement, leads her to a handsome surprise when she meets Augustus at a Cancer Support Group. The fact she's reluctant to get close to him or anyone because as she sees it "I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimise the casualties, okay?" But that doesn't stop Augustus from showing her how "That's the thing about Pain. It deserves to be felt" and they will both slowly fall in love in the most wonderful way; "I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once" (I too wish to fall in love that way too because it sounds so pure and cute.

I've had this in my draft area on Blogger for a while and I've decided to upload it now to get it over with. I won't let this emotional post like The Land Before Time make me sad at the moment as I had a relaxing fortnight in Greece with my family and have had a tough come back into work but at least the hardest time of the year is over now for me and the others. But I've had this ready for a while and have been finding it hard to decide when to upload it without trying to make others think that I'm sad for having written this up or uploaded it at all.

I've been meaning to watch this film for ages but I finally got round to it after a while this year (I think it was May). But back in Greece 2012/ 2013 or whatever, I saw many people around the pool were all reading the same intriguing book by John Green and it had somehow caught everyone's attention as if it was the next best seller (like in 2011 when everyone couldn't get enough of reading 50 Shades Of Grey)!
But at last on 21st May, I got round to watching the DVD that Rebecca bought me for Christmas last year. Boy, was I in for a night of being heartbroken but it did surprise me a few times. It was different to watching My Sister's Keeper because even that looks predictable but this film catches you and it's a tragic love story for our star-crossed lovers (all the more crushing).

This film was wonderful. It lifted me up and dropped me several times as you can expect from the Cancer atmosphere as well as everything that Hazel and Gus have to endure in the story. I liked how the film was different to My Sister's Keeper (plot-wise of course) and this story had a love essence which helped show the quiet and not so popular love brewing up between two people on the brink of dying any moment. It was like watching two friends that you begin to learn about and even though you don't know them in person, you can still relate to their pain and sorrow whilst smiling at how pure their love is. I do intend to read the book as I want to get into reading more like the Harry Potter, Narnia (well it's because I want to learn more about those series and the Narnia films are on hiatus it seems) maybe some others too because reading is what I lack in right now haha.

It was tough to see how these two doomed teenagers had no salvation but they still have a wonderful time in their lives that I'm sure others would recall and talk about forever. Plus they both shared a fulfilling goal in the story to do with a famous book An Imperial Affliction and finding the author who surprisingly turned out to be played by the voice actor for Gill in Finding Nemo and he was the Green Goblin in the original Spider-Man film *wink*.
But in a way, it was nice to see these two actors together again since I saw them as brother and sister in the Divergent film series, hang on, that's a little awkward... (that reminds me, I need to read those and see the second film).
Right now, Hazel was one of the most out-standing teenagers I've ever seen (part of it is because I haven't really seen a woman before having to live off of oxygen and she had to carry hers in a suitcase 24/7) but it's also her graceful beauty which is quite captivating, if I'm honest. And Gus was an admirable young man who knew how to smile through everything and helped others express their pain (even on his trophies haha) as well as see his remaining time through in a not so fearful and crushing view.
Even their friend Isaac (Nat Wolff) was a victim and friend to these two and mid-way brought a fun moment into the film.

I think this story shows how even if things look short or will inevitably end, it's best to make best with all the time you have and treat those memories forever like in 5CPS and in my up-coming long post Clannad. Even if you end up looking back on life and you either lost someone, failed something or wish things had been different, you know everything happened for a reason and we must accept that (something I'm still learning to this day)!
I think the film shows how you can still find happiness before it's taken away from you. In a light-hearted way, it resembles everyday life on how happiness comes and goes and it's up to you on looking for more ways to keep yourself happy (it might not relate to this at all, but I think it's something that I can see in it whilst trying to ignore the sad reality that it shows).
And there are lots and lots of quotes which range from simple to long and after seeing this film, they have a deeper impact even how romantic the word "okay?" is expressed

The soundtrack is rather beautiful, full of gentle orchestrated pieces with slow piano moments to grab us along with songs including the emotional Kodaline - All I Want, the hit song that I heard in the charts for a while last year Charli XCX - Boom Clap (I had no idea it was made for this film but I like her Break The Rules song a little more), the heartwarming He Is We - All About Us (Feat. Owl City) (which wasn't featured in the film, only featured on the soundtrack).
But most of all, the gripping song sung by the gingerbread lad Ed Sheeran and his remarkable song All Of The Stars. When Ed's song came on at the credits after hearing the uplifting and tear-jerking song M83 - Wait during the uplifting and tearful ending, it got me for the 4th or 5th time of weeping in tears thanks to how his gentle voice tells a love story as well as explain how it's over thanks to Death itself.
But this remarkable video shows hundreds of papers of quotes all romantic, uplifting, emotional and from the film together.
It's still a marvellous piece of work compared to his usual guitar and skyrocketing work.



I want to express these 3 off-topic views because I feel they tie in to my post and the whole relation on Death that I believe and find a greater understanding from, I wonder if you will too.
I feel a bit of peace and comfort from hearing these 3 different points of view on Death and how it can be a peaceful thing after all (well, maybe not the last one):
Gandalf The White - The Lord Of The Rings: The Return Of The King
Gandalf explains to Pippin about how "Death is just another path, One that we all must take". I really like the whole concept because it's different to the usual beliefs including Religion. This is like a journey/ scenery to help comfort those who are afraid. The fact he is old and wise, helps add the emotion we see, plus it's Sir Ian McKellen! And hearing that gentle music introduction to Into The West and ending to The Grey Havens makes the moment more mysterious and captivating.
I believe in telling loved ones in the future (as well as for the other example) on sharing this vision of reassurance instead of leaving them scared in their final moment (of course, I'll be an emotional wreck then too, I admit whole heartily).
*Video contains spoilers from The Lord Of The Rings: The Return Of The King!*

- Jemma Simmons & Leo Fitz - Marvel's Agents Of Shield (Season 1 Episode 22)
I like that in this one scene of the last episode of Marvel's Agents Of Shield Season 1 how these 2 love birds (who should hurry up and get together) end up talking about a scientific theory of death and what becomes of people. It looks like they are both doomed to die (so it seems) but Jemma Simmons (Elizabeth Henstridge) talks to Leo Fitz (Iain De Caestecker) about The First Law of Thermodynamics and this is what she says.
Jemma Simmons: I like to think about the first law of thermodynamics, that no energy in the universe is created and... none is destroyed.
Jemma SimmonsLeo Fitz: None is destroyed.
[Both smile]
Jemma Simmons: That means that every bit of energy inside us, every particle will go on to be a part of something else. Maybe live as a dragonfish, a microbe, maybe burn in a supernova ten billion years from now. And every part of us now was once a part of some other thing - a moon, a storm cloud, a mammoth.
Leo Fitz: A monkey.
Jemma Simmons: [Smiles] A monkey. Thousands and thousands of other beautiful things that were just as terrified to die as we are. We gave them new life. Good one, I hope.


Master Yoda - Star Wars Episode III: Revenge Of The Sith
I know this is all fictional but Star Wars has been my biggest fixation since I was a kid and I know so so much about the films, games and what happens after the films, but that's another story.
Anyway, we all pretty much know about "The Force", but when I saw this moment in the third film, I kind of understand and believe in this strict belief (though it's a bit too much to follow through with or tell others) but it's something to just think about or consider if your that hardcore.
Yoda admits to Anakin Skywalker during his council session with him about his visions and encourages him with these words.
"Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed that is", yeah those last 2 statements are a bit off putting and break the old when you think about it because he is referring to The Sith.

I also want to admit how I haven't yet (not that I'm looking forward to) but I haven't known anyone  close to me who has/ have had Cancer to affect me more than usual. But that being said, I have no words or promises to keep or state because I've never experienced this kind of pain yet. I haven't felt or can't imagine the physical pain of watching my body deteriorate/ decay or erode due to the area where the Cancer is affecting me. But somehow, from a hypothetical view, I can believe that other families/ friends and anyone who knows someone who is dying/ suffering will be in a state of mixed, they will maybe handle this with surprising humour possibly to comfort their own pain of seeing suffering. The people dying might even show their own action/ humour or hysteria because everyone is different.
BUT I know that the fact that I can think about this unthinkable topic means that I am trying to somehow prepare myself for the times ahead in my life with whatever unspeakable pain is yet to come to me and the others dear to me. It's like by somehow talking dark about this, I'm preparing myself to remember that this is unavoidable but that I must somehow pull through, to not let myself get dragged down by the loss of my friends and someday my parents but most likely my grandparents someday and continue living my life.
It will be hard to cling onto peace when sorrow has overcome me and everyone else, but if their is one thing I know is possible, it's to continue my life and everyone else must do too as we look for more happiness and peace to keep our lives going whilst treasuring all the loved ones who are gone and keep their lives alive through our memories and stories that we shouldn't feel sad or scared to share and always remember... ever!
And one thing that I've been pondering over recently is that perhaps watching a sad film isn't considered bad or makes you depressed entirely. I think it can help you express your pain through emotional tears and soon help you feel better now that you have cried out some stress, pain or confusion. After all, sometimes I feel better after a night of crying!
Sorry, I got a little carried away their but it's what I believe and want to share.

I think one thing that I took away from the film was seeing the inspiring and truly remarkable plan that Hazel's parents ended up explaining to Hazel when she feared they would fall apart after she's gone. To see her Mum so calmly and reassuringly want to be be there for other parents who will be in their situation is a beautiful and inspiring career to carry out when you know 100% yourself what that others are going through. It brought so much happiness to me as much as it did for Hazel.
I also cannot forget that one eulogy was more emotional in a completely different way and all through the wondrous lesson of Maths. To learn that there are "There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a Bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities." And the heartbreaking epiphany which I will spoil with this picture.

The ending crushed my heart and left me weeping loudly (like Mufasa's Death) as if I was feeling the pain that the characters expressed so deeply and realistically. It was my 3rd out of 4th time crying haha.
But I'm glad that it didn't end there, no, we are left with a magnificent and unforgettable letter that not only shows their love life but also how one person can pay so much attention to detail on the other person they love. This eulogy was both happy and sad to watch but it left me with tears and a smile on my face as I wanted to give that person a hug as the music set the scene perfectly. It may not have been the ending I wanted but it did leave me with a better understanding after a few more views.


I was left like these two at the end haha.


Death is a natural part of life yet it's the end to our journey that we don't want to encounter. I too wonder how life will go on until either the Sun engulfs our Planet or whatever's the outcome to the end of everything some nights. But like Gandalf says in The Fellowship Of The Ring, "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you" and I agree. Everyday we are all living our lives even if we are doing something or nothing. We must treasure everything we will ever do and never doubt ourselves from achieving anything (I need to remember that) and when we're all elders or we're facing our final hour, I'm sure we all will have had a good run, smile at the memories we can still remember, treasure the lives of those we still have or once had with others and most of all, we will be happy before our time is up.

My next posts will be happier than this haha. But I do recommend this film and the book.

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